
I stumbled across this photo yesterday on this Facebook group page — Historical Berkeley. The group mostly posts photos from Berkeley’s past — streets and buildings and businesses from those bygone days. This particular old photo is from Telegraph and Haste (you can see the Soup Kitchen restaurant on the corner and the striped awning of Moe’s Books in the background).
But when I looked closely at the photo, I realized it was my old friend B.N. Duncan that just happened to get captured by chance in the photo, standing there at the crosswalk. In that particular moment in time and space. And standing next to him is his little old lady friend Mikal Overhulse. They’re both long dead now. But there they are in the photo, still standing there.
I immediately realized the photo was from 1980. Because that was the one period in Duncan’s life where Duncan didn’t have a big, bushy beard (he had this Norelco electric shaver at that time that he used to shave himself with every day, until the shaver finally broke down and Duncan never replaced it so he had a big, bushy beard for the rest of his life).
When I saw the photo I was immediately overwhelmed with this deep feeling of melancholy. And this sadness in the pit of my gut. For the rest of the day I felt like crying whenever I thought of that photo. I’m not sure why. Maybe there’s something wrong with me (that’s always a plausible theory). Or maybe there can just be a lot of sadness to this life. At one point I really WANTED to cry. Just to purge myself of the sadness. Ya know. Like when you feel the need to puke, and at some point you just want to puke just to get it out of your system and purge yourself of the poison. So I just wanted to cry and cry to purge myself of the sadness, like a catharsis, where maybe you resolve some kind of deep pain.
Remembering all the movies that were going on at that particular moment. And all the movies that played out afterwards.