A lot of the times I feel like everything went wrong in my life. Just about everything. On any level a person could fail, I failed..It started to go south from a very early age. And I could never pull out of it.
A lot of my life seemed like striving to keep from being overwhelmed by it all and being buried in a hole. To just keep my head above water.
A lot of it was just trying not to be overcome by madness.
And the victories I scored often seemed like booby prizes. Compared to the defeats. Which seemed like profound and cosmic in their magnitude.